Hsiao-Ting Chen
Hsing Wu University
Jui-Ping Hung
Chinese Culture University
Chi-Chia Chuang
The Garden of Hope Foundation
The present essay is a self-narrative; using past story-telling, reflections, actions, and social factors in an attempt to clarify that “I” am not without abilities, that I improved myself through the process of education and school admissions testing, and becoming closer to a “civilized world.”Behind my unbreakable bounds with my mother were deliberate attempts of separation from my father. I attempted this separation to escape “poverty,” and aimed to elevate my “class” by means of education. This ultimately led to a falling out with family. Based on my broken father-daughter relationship, this essay attempts to trace and reflect on my social construct of “fear of inability.” Finally, the essay closes with a gradual reconciliation with my father through mutual story telling of memories.
Keywords: life writing, self narrative, social constructivism